CRY

If anyone asks

I'll tell them we both just moved on

When people all stare

I'll pretend that I dont hear them talk

Whenever I see you

I swallow my pride and bite my tongue

Pretend im okay with it all

Act like there's nothing wrong

If anyone asks

I'll tell them we just grew apart

What do I care if they believe me or not

Whenever I feel your memory is breaking my heart

I'll pretend im okay with it all

Act like there's nothing wrong

Is it over yet?

Can I open my eyes?

Is this as hard as it gets?

Is this what it feels like to really cry?

I'm talking in circle

I'm lying they know it

Why wont this just all go away

TART

Holiday will be ere soon.. And the last holiday for 2009. Christmas holiday.. Im not celebrating Christmas. I juz like it cuz it's holiday. Hihi. So.. My idea of a perfect holiday is hang out with best friends at the rite place on the rite time.. Ahaha.. We all did hang out.. Rite time rite place.. Last month 5 days straight. So many shocking things happened this few months. So my last holiday diz year is sumthin dat I really need the most to summarize my life..
Hmm.. Where do I start? I broke up with TART.. Not his name. Juz a nickname dat I used to call him. I don’t even remember how did it came out at first place. As u all know.. Im broken-hearted. I cried myself to sleep every nite. It sounds pathetic but I'm not ashamed to admit it cuz sure almost every human has been through same experience like mine. That's totally normal so I can consider myself normal too. I spend most of my time hang out wit my best friends, clean up anything.. anything to keep myself bz.
I was like hell for the past few months. Then along the winding road.. I realize dat everybody cares bout me.. Thanx people.. Sumbody cares bout me..
I 'dissappeared' few times. I didn’t pick up calls. I didn’t reply any msgs. I spent whole day in the bedroom.. I was trying to get myself back on track. I was mad n sad n confuse so I went to a place where I could calm myself down n think straight again. A place where I spent whole day indoor watching my fav movies n surfing the internet n playing games n free meals. My gramma's place. Hihihi. I feel a bit better now..

Be4cH

Juz wanne share few pictures dat I took along the way... Sumthin dat I want to remember.. a day trip to a place dat I love.. white sandy beach.. TQ Mr.KuatMenyamal.. Hihihi.

Along the way.. u can see the cute COUPLE TREE n the unique houses..

Almost there...................

And finally... Lurv it ere..

The NoT3B00k

Boring.. Nuttin to do mlm ni. Membe2 ajak kuar tp mcm malas2 kerbau la plak. Bilik dah macam Pirate of Karung. I like to collect boxes cuz I like to collect small things in it. So.. selongkar punya selongkar.. I found sumthin.. Jeng jeng jeng... Notebook.. One of my fav movie..N the best damn kiz eve.. Hihihihi. I love the story line.. Funny, beautiful, lively and touchy.. But most of all. Diz movie reminds me of sum1.. almost 2years ago..

The story is about two young couple who were so very madly deeply in love but the gal's family doesnt like him since da gal comes from a wealthy family but not da boy.. so.. ehem2.. if anybody wants to read more.. click here.. http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0332280/synopsis

Well, it may sound like a malay drama or a hindi movie but you have to watch it first. Really... U'r gonna lurv it. I know SUMONE does.. ahahaha..

Ni story basi dah.. 2thn lepas tp saja nak ingat2 balik.. Hmmpff. Dat nite kami janji nak tgk movie kat uma so I brought my lappy n my fav movie. First tuh.. mmg kna kutuk abis la sbb suggest movie jiwang.. Tp dia tgk gak. Hihihi. The funny part was.. he cried.. Kakakaka. Tp tak nak ngaku. Mata masuk habuk la.. flu la sbb cold dat nite.. Hmm.. Miz him actually!!

Anyway.. I wanne share few lines dat I like in diz movie...

They didn’t agree on much. In fact they rarely agreed on anything. They fought all the time and the challenged each other everyday. But despite of their differences they had one important thing in common, they were crazy about each other.

So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like?

My Dearest Allie. I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you. Noah

Ordinary Dayz

I went out for a stroll that evening.. tried to put my thoughts in order. There wont be a day like this for a long time. Me and musuk are happy and in love. Surely life cant be a fairytale... But what I've lived through with Musuk makes me believe that happiness is real. Even we are devoted to our job and plus extra class for me every weekend, we are together as much as possible. But one thing that I will remember.. He taught me how to take joy from quite ordinary days.

Rainy Day

We had a fight over sumthin dat I dunno how to explain. Been a month. Suddenly he called.. yesterday.. asking me out... Felt like I was dreaming. I was so excited but again.. as usual.. act as cool as possible. He picked me up around 5. I sat there in his car.. he smiled, I smiled but we didnt talked along the way.. Sumhow it felt good to have him around. Comfy.. yup.. dat's the exact word.. comfortable!

Finally, about 20minutes of silence.. I MISS U.. he said. Hihi.. I miz him too actually but my tongue was numb I couldnt say anything. Maybe I was too excited. We had seafood for dinner. His fav for sure the Butter Prawn & Fried Squid.. He brought me to my fav spot. There.. we talked all nite. Everything seemed perfect.

We had several fight before.. for this moment.. that was the worse one. But we always find ways to patch things up later on.. no matter how long. We wouldnt wanne sacrife all the good memories because of a small tiny bad memory.. Doesnt worth it. That's juz wat we do.. we fight.. we dare to tell exactly how we feel.. then work things out together.